loneliness

my loneliness
           tells me that nobody cares
          that i might as well call it quits
        nobody hears me anyway
     and who will miss me?

my loneliness
           holds me hostage
          makes me feel too big for a good old cry
        too together to ask for help
     too proud to admit that i am drowning

and i am drowning
           heart pounding
          mouth gasping for air
       lungs taking in water
    feet desperately searching for a foothold

and i am trying
          to keep
         my
      head
     above
   water