Ode to Nothing

I have learnt how to swallow
myself
How to be invisible
to dissolve into walls
soak into carpet
disappear

I have learnt how to become
nothing
How not to stretch myself beyond a few inches
how to keep my opinions
locked into a box
buried in the soil of my consciousness

It is easy to become naught
to let arms hang limp
Let feet drag
simply exist
become
nothing beyond
ordinary.

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Because even now, my 28-year-old self is as tired of the fakeness I encoutner everyday as my 18-year-old self was.
Because WhatsApp groups are the fakest.
Because I am ranting.
Because Nigeria is currently being very shit.